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[Dec. 1st, 2010|10:50 am]
Rachel's fanfic

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The latest challenge at thegameison_sh was minor character fic, so here is a little something I wrote about Anthea.

Title: Memory
Rating: PG
Warnings: none
Word count: about 500

She calls him sir because she doesn’t remember his name, but she does remember his authority. When he texts, she remembers his name, but by the time she has reached him it’s gone. It doesn’t matter; he doesn’t need a name, and neither does she, although when prompted she will give one. Always the first female name that comes to mind. Maybe one of them is right; she would have to check her files. She knows that she will forget to look, because it isn’t important. Everything that matters is written on the Blackberry. People who don’t know her think she is rude, the way she has the phone permanently in front of her. But with its notes and to do lists and address book it is how she remembers, moment to moment, who she is speaking to, where she is going. Associative prosopagnosia; partial retrograde amnesia; mild anterograde amnesia. She remembers these terms. Semantic memory, the ability to store and recall factual information, that was not damaged in –

She would have to refer to her notes to recall the accident. She has done so in the past, looking at photographs of tangled wreckage and her own bloody body, which she recognises only because there when she sees her name on the file she remembers it, and knows this is about her. Prosopagnosia: the ability to recognise faces. She lost that, too. Even her own. Sometimes she has been shocked by her own reflection. These days she has learned to apply makeup without looking in the mirror. Her procedural memory is not impaired. Her lipstick is always perfect. He tells her so, and she trusts him. It’s his voice. She may not remember his face, but she can remember his voice. It is so very calm. It was when they first met – the first time, at least, that she remembers them meeting, but so much of before is lost – and he sat by her bedside, voice very gentle, and he had offered her a job.

She might seem a surprising choice as a personal assistant; normally PAs are expected to remember faces, to not sometimes altogether lose the thread of conversations, to remember without recourse to a diary where they are and why. But then, most PAs don’t work for a department with a false name and fake offices, manufactured right down to the files in the drawers and the departmental newsletter. For that sort of department, a personal assistant who perfectly remembers how to manage a diary, write minutes and field phone calls is useful; for that sort of department, a personal assistant who will forget anything that needs to be forgotten is invaluable. “You have both … skillsets,” he had said, mildly, that first day, a thick file on his lap full of information about her she had forgotten. It was a shock, to hear her disabilities spoken of as advantages. It was why she had said yes, why she had carefully written down the address and underneath it, after the word job to jog her memory, she had added you trust him.

She is pretty sure she had written it, anyway. Knowing him as she does now, it’s perfectly plausible he had added that himself. Just to make sure she would come. But for some reason that sort of duplicity is comforting. It makes her feel wanted. Every good personal assistant wants to be invaluable to her boss, after all.
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[User Picture]From: mariana_oconnor
2010-12-01 11:23 am (UTC)
Ooh, I like this, I also like that hint at the end that Mycroft is manipulating her (and although I know it's impossible, a part of my brain is going 'The memory loss was a part fo the job offer. Mycroft organised it all'

But then, in my head, Mycroft is omniscient.

Well written and touching in a sort of disconnected way. ^_^
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[User Picture]From: rachel2205
2010-12-01 11:59 am (UTC)
Thanks very much! If anyone COULD organise amnesia it would be Mycroft!
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[User Picture]From: soul_bonnie
2010-12-01 12:12 pm (UTC)

Brilliant. Just brilliant. I had the theory that she's constantly getting orders via the phone, but yours is infinitely better. And it makes such perfect sense that she doesn't remember John!
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[User Picture]From: rachel2205
2010-12-01 12:15 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I was inspired by that bit at the end of the first ep when she just seems to completely blank John, which is not at all what you'd expect of an assistant to a very senior govt type... Really glad you enjoyed :)
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[User Picture]From: equusentric
2010-12-01 01:12 pm (UTC)
What a fascinating idea. It always annoyed me at the end of ASiP when she asks, "Whose status?" because it seemed rather sloppy of her, like she hadn't been listening to Mycroft. It makes sense in this context, and thus I'm adopting this as canon. *nods*
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[User Picture]From: rachel2205
2010-12-01 01:14 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I thought it was funny but it annoyed me too - having worked at the Home Office as a PA, I know you have to be REALLY ON THE BALL, haha. Glad you enjoyed!
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[User Picture]From: fengirl88
2010-12-01 01:13 pm (UTC)
I've never seen an explanation of her blankness before but yours makes wonderful sense - really enjoyed this!
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[User Picture]From: rachel2205
2010-12-01 01:14 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much! :D
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[User Picture]From: rabidsamfan
2010-12-01 01:16 pm (UTC)
A truly fascinating hypothesis!
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[User Picture]From: rachel2205
2010-12-01 01:57 pm (UTC)
Glad you enjoyed!
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[User Picture]From: rachel2205
2010-12-01 01:57 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much for this lovely feedback! (Great icon.)
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[User Picture]From: melanacious
2010-12-01 04:26 pm (UTC)
Very good. I love that bit... 'you trust him,' and her being sure she'd added it but now knowing him as she does she realizes that he may have been the one to have added that.
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[User Picture]From: rachel2205
2010-12-01 04:40 pm (UTC)
Thanks for reading!
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[User Picture]From: rachel2205
2010-12-01 04:40 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much, what a lovely compliment.
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[User Picture]From: scribbledscenes
2010-12-01 10:09 pm (UTC)
That is awesome! <3 I don't know who she is, but I like it! I don't know who the 'him' is either. Opinion remains regardless ;)
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[User Picture]From: rachel2205
2010-12-01 10:43 pm (UTC)
Hee, thanks sweetie! I'm glad you can enjoy it without being a Sherlock fan!
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[User Picture]From: rachel2205
2010-12-06 12:13 am (UTC)
Thank you very much!

And yes, I am happy for you to do that! Just drop me a link here when you've done it, and if you could also give people the original link when you translate it that'd be great! I'm flattered :)
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[User Picture]From: rachel2205
2011-01-28 07:36 pm (UTC)
Oooh exciting! Thanks!
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[User Picture]From: oxfordtweed
2010-12-23 10:44 am (UTC)
I'm totally adopting this as headcanon now. This was great, and I could totally see Mycroft having written that little note, himself. He's just that evil.
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[User Picture]From: rachel2205
2010-12-23 11:47 am (UTC)
Thanks so much! That's a great compliment :)
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[User Picture]From: goldvermilion87
2011-05-21 10:26 pm (UTC)
That is awesome! I think it's a great explanation for her. And the last paragraph is so chilling, but completely believeable.
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[User Picture]From: rachel2205
2011-05-23 08:30 am (UTC)
Thank you kindly! <3
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[User Picture]From: sporadic_writer
2013-10-12 04:32 am (UTC)
Wow, those last lines pack a powerful punch, and I can definitely see Mycroft engaging in that kind of manipulation. Anthea is incredible here; she doesn't seem vulnerable at all; she seems very calm and oddly in control.
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